Holding Space for Letdown

September 8, 2014

“All I want for my birthday is to go away with Daddy.” It was months before my daughter’s sixth birthday. Although she had been on many vacations, she never traveled with her dad. My happiness at his agreement to take her away shifted into heartbreak when he decided to plan a trip without her. My only solace in his decision was […]

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A Gift to Moms

April 15, 2013

I was amidst a current of chemotherapy and after effects of radiation when my body’s recovery slowed and I could no longer keep up with the aggressive cancer treatment. This gave me a reprieve of several weeks that allowed by body to heal enough to come along with a friend to an API support group. […]

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It’s Going to Be Okay

March 6, 2013

“I’m not going in.” Kaylee screamed as I opened the door to our apartment building. It had been months since I left and the transition coming back from her dad’s was still difficult. She was tugging on my shirt with alligator tears clung to her cheeks and snot running down her face. “I wish you […]

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Mommy’s meditating!

February 6, 2013

By the time my daughter was 2 years old, I had completed treatment for cancer. Still very ill, I was on a quest to find health. I understood cancer to be an environmental disease, and while I could not say I knew what had caused the disease, I thought if I made enough changes, I […]

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Weaning Early

January 4, 2013

I didn’t think much about parenting before I became a mom, but when it came to breastfeeding, there was never a question in my mind that we would nurse. From the moment she latched on, I knew we would be doing this for a long, long time. And so, on the week of her first […]

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November 8, 2012

Having neutropenia means you lack the white blood cells necessary to fight infections. Should a patient get a fever during neutropenia, they must be admitted to the hospital to receive IV antibiotics or they are very likely to die (I do not remember the numbers exactly, but its something like a 70% mortality). The week […]

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Mommy’s here

October 5, 2012

Just after my daughter’s second birthday, she had a prescription to get blood drawn. I told myself it would be okay and I decided that it would be easier for her if she watched me do it first. We went to the local hospital. I had gone there many, many times during the past year […]

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