your posts have been very helpful to read. I am having a really hard time right now. I am not recognizable to myself, and so far away from the parent I always imagined I would be. I have a 2 year old son.
As brief as I can be:
I struggled with infertility and had 2 miscarriages before having my son. I also lost my best friend, my dog, while I was pregnant. I think I didn't allow myself time to grieve any of these losses because I wanted to focus on my son. without going into my relationship, it was bad for many reasons, and I am now a single mother.
I have co-slept with my son his entire life and am still breastfeeding. as a result, (but not only due to this) I can honestly say I have not slept more than 4 hours straight, and usually total - in at least 3 years. all the stress at home keeps my head spinning and I am beyond sleep deprived.
to make things worse, he has never slept as much as his age is "supposed" to - never. and he rarely sleeps or sleeps well without being attached to me. this leaves little to literally no time for me to take care of me, let alone the dishes, the laundry, the house, the cats - you name it......
so, all that said, I am not handling anything well.
my son is smart and is a nice kid most of the time. but entirely too often he refuses to let me change his diaper, get him dressed, wash his hands to eat, sit down to eat, get in the car seat, let me put his shoes on, get him undressed... and on and on. I am just so tired of it all. I don't want to yell. I don't want to "force" - but I am sad to say I have done both.
I have tried to distract and redirect and give him choices and give him a heads up of what is to come. I am at my wits end.
I would really appreciate any suggestions on:
helping him sleep without having to nurse
helping him sleep without me in the bed
what to do when he just won't listen (from car seat to dangerous or simply unwanted behaviors)
and - he is up. so I must go now. story of my life! at least I got a bit out.
I would really appreciate any suggestions.