DS is right in the middle of 2YO separation anxiety. He wants to have mum milk CONSTANTLY. He is also very combative and trying to get attention through bad behavior.
DD is just about six months and also going through a sep anxiety stage. She is so terribly clingy, wanting to feed constantly. Waking every hour all night. Not settling for anyone but me and not even liking to be held by anyone but me.
There is only one of me to go around and two children who want nothing less than all of me 24/7. I need a break. I really, really need a break. It takes up to an hour EVERY TIME I put DD down for a sleep (she wont sleep in a wrap or sling unfortunately) and then she only sleeps for fifteen min! The moment I am done getting her down DS wants me on the couch to feed him. Then she wakes up and needs me to carry her from room to room.... constantly. DS the whole time hanging off my leg begging for more milk. I feel like I spend all my time at the moment telling him not to do things and to just wait.
I have attempted to leave them with DH. DS is alright as long as its not for too long. DD on the other hand is not interested in dads cuddles and just screams the whole time. Proper scared crying with tears. She gets so upset that I really cannot just ignore it.
I am writing this in tears and I have never been so tired in my life. I am so run down I have a constant cold and keep picking up other bugs too. I am seriously close to letting DD CIO. But the thought makes me cry. But I dont know what else to do. (great, now I'm crying again).
I am miserable and wish I could go back in time.