Howdy.. i have posted a few times, but feel I need to post again re: my now 18 mnth daughter. She is very social, bright and alert and we have a good, attached rship, for the most part. Rcently, I have felt extremely burnt out. We moved to Brazil from the States a year ago, almost - i am from the UK, but US had been my dear home for 9 years and moving was dreadful for me. I have not adjusted and it has put a rift btwn me and my husband. I have been depressed and down and wish I was with my friends and my family for support. My husband is a really good man and embraced AP as much as he can, with some slip ups, but he is really insightul when he does yell or something and apologises and loves my daughter and they have a great rapport.
This mild depression has me crying, usually every other day. My daughter continues to wake and nurse back to sleep about 6 times a night and longest stretch is 3 -3 1/2 hrs sleep - I am extremely sleep deprived and very tired and sometimes I don't think straigt. Some times in the night, I just want it over and feel frustrated, not with her, although it feels like it, but with the whole situation. She has started biting my nipples and they are very sore - very.She did it before, but then I spent 2 mnths in the UK with my parents where I felt much happier and she stopped - leads me to think it is more emotional than anything. SHe has had a lot of teeth come in sicne we've been back, it may be part this, but I blame myself. I blame myself for the agner and irritation I feel sometimes at night - swearing in my head, or under my breath when I am very tired and having a tense body etc.... although, by the 3rd waking and i've had some sleep I don't mind it and find it cosy etc. Last night she bit my nipple and a yelped - it was so sore and she started crying a lot. Tonight, after a pretty good day and a good evening, eating, playing, laughing and having fun, she almost got hit by a large water bottle she was playing with and started crying and she was very tired cos' only had 1/2 hr nap - when she usually has 2 - 2 1/2 hr nap and then she tried biting my nipple, I yelled and then my husband did and she started really, really getting upset for about 45 mins crying and moving her body back and forth, wanting to go outiside and only calming down a little when we did. It was very distressing and I feel awful - just awful. My husband and I practice positive discipline, but were advised to yell about nipple biting and also we yelled at her earlier about trying to climb some dangerous stairs, but we save that for the dangerous acts - although she just found that funny. ANything to do with the nipple, really, really gets her very upset.
We have been respectfully discussing separating because of my dislike of living here and I think she feels that too. I need some guidance really bad.
Thank You.
This mild depression has me crying, usually every other day. My daughter continues to wake and nurse back to sleep about 6 times a night and longest stretch is 3 -3 1/2 hrs sleep - I am extremely sleep deprived and very tired and sometimes I don't think straigt. Some times in the night, I just want it over and feel frustrated, not with her, although it feels like it, but with the whole situation. She has started biting my nipples and they are very sore - very.She did it before, but then I spent 2 mnths in the UK with my parents where I felt much happier and she stopped - leads me to think it is more emotional than anything. SHe has had a lot of teeth come in sicne we've been back, it may be part this, but I blame myself. I blame myself for the agner and irritation I feel sometimes at night - swearing in my head, or under my breath when I am very tired and having a tense body etc.... although, by the 3rd waking and i've had some sleep I don't mind it and find it cosy etc. Last night she bit my nipple and a yelped - it was so sore and she started crying a lot. Tonight, after a pretty good day and a good evening, eating, playing, laughing and having fun, she almost got hit by a large water bottle she was playing with and started crying and she was very tired cos' only had 1/2 hr nap - when she usually has 2 - 2 1/2 hr nap and then she tried biting my nipple, I yelled and then my husband did and she started really, really getting upset for about 45 mins crying and moving her body back and forth, wanting to go outiside and only calming down a little when we did. It was very distressing and I feel awful - just awful. My husband and I practice positive discipline, but were advised to yell about nipple biting and also we yelled at her earlier about trying to climb some dangerous stairs, but we save that for the dangerous acts - although she just found that funny. ANything to do with the nipple, really, really gets her very upset.
We have been respectfully discussing separating because of my dislike of living here and I think she feels that too. I need some guidance really bad.
Thank You.
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