When I was 16 on got some really bad blood work and my dr. informed me that it would be in my best interest if I never got pregnant (I had the begining signs of lupus and his fear was that during the pregnancy it would develop into full blown lupus). I was devistated! I love children sooo much. After much greiving I focused on a carrier in Mental health working with teens. I was satisfied doing that. After a routine check up with my dr. he told me. This is the best blood work you've had in almost 10 years. If you want to get pregnant- go for it. I was pregnant in 2 months It was a horrible pregnancy. I spent more time in the ER than I did at home. I was diagnoised with sever hyperemisis gravadarum. I was given medicine to try and help make it better but because we had no coverage for the I was unable to take all of them and my parents payed for the ones they could afford. In my first trimester I was vomiting about 200 times a day. I ended up tearing my esophagus and pulling muscles in my stomach. One day while vomiting i felt a loud pop and my dh had to run me to a near by ER where they thought I may be suffering from appendicitis. They couldn't find it on an ultra sound and they could see fluid around my ovaries that would indicate a cyst poping. They decided to fill me with anitbiotics incase I did have appendicitis. This led to developing a C dif infection in my bowls and more hospitalization. I was constantly having to recieve IV's to prevent dehydration and I have scars on my arms because I had so many. After 9 months of constantly puking my highrisk dr enduced me a week early. I was blessed to deliver a beautiful baby girl who was healthy. At my 6 week check up dr. recommended tubiligation (might be a spelling mistake there). My reply was wants the point i have bad periods i'll be on BC for the rest of my life. You might as well do one more snip and take the uterus out. He agreed and referred me to another dr. The gynocoligist agreed and told me when i'm done BF i can get the hystorectomy done whenever I want. Right after the birth i was 100% sure I wanted it. Now that I have a 2 yr old i'm craving another one. It's too the point I really don't hold babies anymore because I come home a cry that I can't have another.
A week ago I started doing research on hyperemisis in pregnancy and found a wonderful site where mom's have survived multiple pregnancy's with this dibilitating disorder and their babies we're healthy. All the research I've done says their is no side-effects to the baby in regards to the hyperemisis. The only side-effects that are dangerous are Dehydration and Malnurishment however I've talked with some midwives in the area and they are able to treat me at home with this unfortunate issue.
I kinda of hinted to my parents that i was thinking about becoming pregnant again and they told me that they were 100% against it. That I was being selfish and I would be hospitalized and it would be detrimental to my DD as she is securly attatched to me. I could possibly kill my next lo or myself and I should count myself lucky i have my dd and move on with my life. My dh is for it as well as my MIL. My GP is against it but by OB told me "I'll see you again in 2 yrs". I'm soo confused. I have gone from one extream to another and I'm torn on what to do. I don't want to hurt my dd by being seperated from her too much, but I don't want her to feel alone because she's an only child (something some my friends who are only children complain about and still to this day tell me i have to have another child, i can't make me dd feel like they do). I'm looking for advice or support on what to do! My parents are so important to me (I'm very attatched to them and they play a huge role in my life). I don't want them to be disappointed or angry at me but i really want another baby